We often live in the past and the future at the same time, which gives us a feeling of inner division and is perhaps the main cause of our weariness.
When we are so preoccupied with our past and our future, we naturally have neither energy nor openness left for the present moment, the only moment that mediates God’s will. Just as we usually sidestep our true personality, which is “light in the Lord” (Eph 5:8), we also usually seek God’s will by the wayside, in the wrong place. We always come too early or too late and never hit upon the present moment. We are obstinate in wanting to eat something other than what God serves, and then we are surprised that we have indigestion! We prefer to eat either old leftovers or food that is not fully cooked, and we think it is strange that we do not feel well.