Leave a comment

“But are you really putting God first?”

—from Something Other Than God by Jennifer Fulwiler, Ch. 31

“That’s great. It really is”, I said. “And maybe that was God calling out to you that night—I could believe that. But the truth is that people who follow him have crappy lives all the time.”

He snapped out of his daze. “Oh, well, if you mean that they’ll have a bunch of tough things happen to them, sure. Do you remember what Noe said they do to Inquirers at the Rite of Acceptance?”

“Not really.”

“They mark them with the sign of the cross. The sponsors trace a cross over their eyes, their ears, their lips, their heart, their shoulders, and their hands and feet. It’s to prepare them that the cross will touch every part of their lives.”

“What?” My face contorted into a frown. “Well, that sounds horrible. Where do I sign up to have more misery in my life?”

“No. I said ‘suffering’, not ‘misery’.”

“Same thing.”

“But it’s not!” Joe said, an urgency behind his voice. “That’s Christianity’s whole message: the more you love, the more you’re going to have to give up—you can’t hold anything back. And that’s going to mean suffering. But it’s also going to mean joy and peace.”

I stared at my hands. “I’ve been doing this Christianity thing for months now, and I think I have less joy and peace than I used to.”

“But are you really putting God first?”

I didn’t answer.

something other than God

+

Carry Me by Audrey Assad on The House You’re Building

Pain is a forest we all get lost in
Between the branches hope can be so hard to see
And in the darkness we’ve all got questions
We’re all just trying to make sense out of suffering but

You say I am blessed because of this
So, I choose to believe
As I carry this cross, You’ll carry me
Help me believe it

Fear is a current we all get caught in
And in its motion faith can be so hard to find
And we all falter ’cause we’re all broken
We’re all just trying to turn the shadows into light but

You get glory in the midst of this
And You’re walking with me
And you say I am blessed because of this
So, I choose to believe
As I carry this cross, You’ll carry me

And I know Your promises are faithful
And God, I’ve seen Your goodness in my life
And oh, I’ve found Your mercy is a river
Your love is an ocean wide

You carry me, God
You carry me

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: